We're moving...

I'm still in denial/shock. I am not as strong as I thought I was. I feel like I should be so excited and happy but I'm struggling with thoughts like, it's going to be sad to leave all my friends, and my girls friends, ow can I do this to them? Take them away from their friends and Grandparents and wonderful ward members? I'm going to have to leave my chickens (which I have ALWAYS wanted) behind, along with my cats who I LOVE and the house Nate and I always planned to stay in forever!!! The life I have always wanted is here. I've only ever wanted to stay here with my husband and children and family. I'm going to have to leave it all behind...am I strong enough? I can't even think about it or I cry...talking about it...forget it! Right now I am just not thinking about it (denial) and praying (that that dreadful day in June will never come) & for wisdom, strength and courage to do what the Lord wants us to do.